Today I learned something new. I experienced a chemical miscarriage in April and again this evening after dinner. I'm not completely sure that's what happened but after reading Natalie's post it made me think that was the best possibility.
I went to the restroom after dinner and looked down to see I had started my period.. Ten days late. I feel so horrible. I'm so saddened and confused by it all. I feel like this may never happen for Rex and I and that makes me so, so sad.
I want to have babies so bad it hurts. I'm trying to stay positive but all I want to do is crawl into a hole and cry all day and night. Instead I'm going to sit here on the couch and watch Cloud Atlas with my husband. He has been so great to me. He's just as devastated as I am. We both want this so bad. All we can do is pray and keep trying, so that's what we're going to do.
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