Patience

As cute as she may look, she really tests my patience. Watching my nieces has been good practice but on some days it makes me question whether or not I'm ready to be a mom. I just keep telling myself that my daughter will be different. She will listen to me and eat at the table without a fight or getting distracted. She won't tell me no all the time or cry to manipulate me to get what she wants. Of course I know these things will happen from time to time but I just pray that when it's my child I will have more patience. I don't want to yell and be mean but it's really the only thing that actually works with my niece. She doesn't listen unless I raise my voice. Sometimes she runs off and cries (my SIL  does not like to let them cry it out) and then I end up giving in to what she wants and the crying stops immediately. That shows me that it's a manipulation. She knows that she will get what she wants if she cries for it. Well not my future child. I won't have a problem letting her cry it out. Now you may say I'm living in a fantasy world and that my daughter is going to be horrible. That may be true but at least I'm going to make an effort to teach her the right way. I can't wait. Hurry up April!!